so, i think i've notice a trend, i always write here when i'm tired and somewhat disgruntled. but for the time being i will fixate on the lovely music coming from my compute, being that of pride and prejudice. wouldn't it be lovely to dance with mr. darcy? I would quite fancy that. In fact, I wonder if i'm really doing the right thing now, you know with the current relatioship. maybe there's some one else out there who would fit me better....not that i don't love him or anything, but sometimes it doesn't feel quite right...and sometimes i think he feels that too. but there's no need to do anything rash now, there's no need to hurry anything. things will work out whatever way they are supposed to go.

gosh you know, when george reisner wrote about his findings he really did write. not that he wasn't good at it, but as a person who has way to much on her brain right now, i find it difficult to take it all in, in addition the AH reading on semiotics seems quite beyond me. I think art history (AH) has reached a point where everyone is making it up as they go along, in fact, they are trying to make these seemingly complicated analysis' (sp?) which in the end come across as stupid rather than astonishing. but maybe to the more learned art historian i have no idea what i am talking about. i enjoyed iconography....but then again i am sleepy.

in the meantime, enjoy this photo (whoever you are) of my open yours too package. I sent it out today to canada - i hope it gets there, i seem to have bad luck with things arriving.

spring

i'm home right now on school break -sitting up on my bunk bed and picking up the internet next door (which chap lets me do, by the way). The heat is blasting - it's so cold and windy out. i'm actually glad to be out of boston for a little bit because it was getting a little too clastrophobic in the apartment, and in the city in general. work was long today , at least longer than i'm used to, i was filling in for a girl who went to florida...lucky her with the warm weather (not that i would pick florida, that is. but i would be happy with anything right now!)

gravity, sigh.

mum and i will be going to osgoods this week (and amazing crazy fabric store) and everything's pretty cheap there too. then maybe even go to nyc on friday.....but first i really must do some school work. and in the meantime, i will go to bed. good night!

loney and tiredy night

too many boat pits for one person, i say. i'm homeworked out- well i know i'm just taking a short break- ohwell. mom came up today and we ran around trying to find fabric for the geometric. i finally found some at winmill dowtown (yes there is no d in winmill, even though i wish there was.) now i'm drinking coke -yay. but i'm afraid my money has probably gone down since yesterday with taking mum out for lunch and everything. yoshie and justin got a hold of me...it was really awesome to here from them. i'm the only one in the house right now and i really hope you know who doesn't come home-because some one else is gone for the weekend and i want to talk to him first before i confront her bout all that cal. away i go.

harald harfagre

i'm drinking a lot of coke tonight. i don't know why . i've been trying to come up with a project for my scadinavian lit class, and i thought i might use my dala horse...oh but it's cheating i know and i want to do something new anyways.

in addition, i've been looking over the geaneology stuff grandpa gave to me (and in those days i think ididn't appreciate it enough) and of course, I remember it all had to do with a man named Herlog Hudfat (how odd of a name) and a norwegian king. now reading it all over again, i think i had though Herlog was the scandinavian king- but they seem to be to different people. infact, for the pleasure of all reading, i could type out a list of how my family descends from Harald-fine hair, the first king to unite norway in the 9th century. but that would take many pages, and a lot of my time, but it's good enough for me to know that the documentation is all sitting right next to me and that i am, in fact, royalty.

and, i just finished my AH reading....a particular one by jo anna issak which talks about mothers of invention, and how many women artists today are honoring their mothers by doing geneaological research. funny timing.

P.s. here' s a picture of the yellow curry i consumed last saturday. doesn't it make you want some?

entitlement

oh what a long day, school (printing) then lunch including studying, then more printing, then meeting with the role playing group, then knitting w/ the nomad crew. the last event of the night was clearly the most exciting! i'm so exhausted now, not tired but just exhausted. i'm definetly thinking over what my schedule should be like next semester, because this half time/half time thing is really wearing me down. I just have so much to do I'm ready to explode. I don't know why I'm trying to do so much.

in top of all that, I'm absolutely nervous about my tufts app- a lot more people I've heard have applied. it makes me really wonder what kind of a person i am. if that stuck up bitch who was mean to katie gets in i willl be sooo pissssed...

on another topic, one which has troubled me for some time- entightlement and learned helplessness. oh god i could really go on forever about it. my dad's side of the family (but not my dad, m ind you) is so increadibly self centered- somehow, they believe they deserve to be the center of attention no matter what circumstances, i think i could write an essay on different examples. for instance, my uncle who runs a candy store up in p-town just assumes that it is easy for us to drive up there and stay there for three nights- it's fucking expensive out there, and then they want to go out to the most expensive restaurant on the warf and expect my father to pay for it. the whole scenario makes me really sick. it makes my mother sick too. this is only one of the examples, trust me, there are many more which i could serve to you on a silver plater. so i started observing other things in life. ..
I have also met many people (and even a current roommate now) who have a very similar mentality- that they are entitled to everything, and if they do not get their way, they will let you know...oh will they let you know.

and the thing that scares me the most is becoming something like one of these people.

I

donuts

well i need to go to work in a bout a half hour and ricky and i ran out and got donuts...i'm bringing a dozen yummy donuts to work, which i believe will be consumed quickly ( at least if I have anything to do with it!!! ) i've borrrowed my dad's camera for the weekend/week so hopefully i will be able to take some pictures of some things which i have been wanting to....ie my stuff that i make ....

we watched man in the iron mask last night ( oh how i love that movie, it's one of the few that I actually own) i think this movie didn't do to well in the theater but i don't see why, frankly i find it quite wonderful, except for those few corny lines in the movie such as "i wear the mask, the mask doesn't wear me" oh how these lines make me cringe in my seat. but otherwise, a great lil flick.

we went to the south end yesterday as well, where ricky and i both had moon cookies ( the half chocolate frosted and the half vanilla frosted ones) and they were de-lish! in addition we also ate at the wonderful cheap thai and asian restaurant down the street again with huge portions!!! why does food make me so happy? i don't know

for giggles

i'm getting tired- hey just like last time. that picture came out crooked, for that i apologize. i called emily to wish her a happy birthday. i think she was glad to hear from me. ricky's coming up tomorrow morning, and i'm excited to see him. maybe i could even get the gary graham dress this weekend? is it possible? maybe i should wait just due to logistics. i would have no where to wear it right now.

i've been working on my boat pit power point presentation most of today. and now i've rocking out to the wonderful jarvis cocker. i was finally able to find the harry potter songs online...yay! i think it would be really funny to make a jarvis powerpoint presentation. i would enjoy that. maybe i will make one for giggles. and then i could laugh and be happy about it, and it would be my own little joke.

i guess we have moths downstairs now- uhgg. and we have mice. and we are so clean too! i don't get it. but everything seems to be okay room mate wise- i'll just wait for them to come to me now. i just started Njal's Saga- it looks long but pretty good, there are so many details -just like the eddas- all these things about who is whose daughter/son and where they came from but it really does not pertain to the story itself.....oh well....to sleep i go